I'm on the phone with her now, but it feels different. Had some arguement with her this morning. So I dunno. I didn't meet her today, just because she didn't want to. Sigh, I'm sad. I miss her, lots. I'm wondering if she feels the same too.

So I went to school in the morning, didn't meet up with Ryan. He was late, so he asked me to go by myself. I did. So I went for DCNK lecture, and I had no mood to study at all. So after the lecture, I went to the stairs to stone. I miss her, badly. I feel so bad for making her so grumpy and pissed early in the morning. Then I went back for maths lecture. It was horrible. 3/4 of the people in the lecture hall were like sleeping, talking or playing games. Then towards the end of the lesson, she called. I was relieved. She sounded better already. A good sign. She's at school, waiting for the bell to ring so that she could meet up with her friends. So I accompanied her on the phone till she met up with her friends. I felt better, seriously felt alot better. Knowing that she's happy and not angry at me, I was relieved.

I didn't attend the semester briefing. In fact, we left when the lecture came in. I felt bad, because she's my favourite lecturer. She taught me in my first semester. She's special because she does things what other lecturers don't. She cares for her students. Some can't even be bothered.

So we went to Tampanies Mall, handed in my application for my Capita card. This card has discounts at many places. So it's worth having one on me. I had Long John Silver's for lunch. Then went walking around, scouting for things to buy. Andy bought this bling-bling necklace and Zheng Yee bought a pair of Levi's. But he didn't have enough money, so Jing Jing lent him.
And I extended my membership for 77th street. It's going to expire soon, I don't want my points to be lost. Haha. After that, we went to Centuary Square to play acrade. We played the racing game. I suck at it, I admit. LOL. Then after a few races, we headed to popular to buy things for our IISO model. I must say, my group's model would be the best! =D

So back in school, we did our model util we forgot that we had lessons until Ryan reminded us. LOL. Had my programming subject. Then something damn funny happened. My lecturer has a blue nose! Haha, damn funny. Because we kept laughing, then he went to the toilet. When he came back, he still had the colour on the nose. I tried taking a photograph, but the lighting wasn't good. Then I came up with this "bludoph" name because "rudolph" has a red nose. Get it? LOL. He was practically chasing me and Sarina out of the class because we finished our lab work. Haha. So i called her, she didn't want me to meet her. So I stayed back in school to do our model again. We stayed till 8pm. Then headed down to the driving centre because Jing Jing wanted to convert her lessons to auto. But in the end she didn't change. -.-

We had dinner at some coffeeshop which claims to have famous "Hokkien Mee". I think that it was okay, but Ryan and Jing Jing differ. Haha, so we sent Jing Jing to the MRT station then we went back by bus. Had a long chat with Ryan in the bus. The old days we used to have together. It was fun, carefree, never had to worry about anything else except our studies.

But life changes. Everybody changes. Quoted from Shuan, "The only constant in life is change.". I agree. I changed, she changed, everyone changed. And my only wish is to be able to adapt to these changes quickly and in the best ways possible, not making any mistakes or making anyone unhappy. Especially the one I love. I had never felt this way about a girl before. I used to be a bastard. Yes, I think I am. I had never treated any girl the way they deserved to be treated, until she came into my life. But she changed me, for the better. Teaching me lots of stuff. Things like how missing a person felt like, shedding my tears for someone. Yes, I do shed my tears. I had never imagine myself to cry because of someone. I held back my tears when my grandfather died. I wasn't a good grandson. He doted me alot, but thinking on how I treated him in the past, I really regretted my actions. Sigh, if I knew what I was doing then, things might have been different. I think I've grown up, I know who are the ones I should treasure, who my friends are.

Gone were those days. I'm waiting for her call now. I miss her. I'm listening to this song now, really nice. Here's the lyrics.

Don't give up on us, baby
Don't make the wrong seem right
The future isn't just one night
It's written in the moonlight
And painted on the stars
We can't change ours

Don't give up on us, baby
We're still worth one more try
I know we put our last one by
Just for a rainy evening
When maybe stars are few
Don't give up on us,
I know we can still come through

I really lost my head last night
You've got a right to stop believing
There's still a little love left, even so

Don't give up on us, baby
Lord knows we've come this far
Can't we stay the way we are?
The angel and the dreamer
Who sometimes plays a fool
Don't give up on us, I know
We can still come through

It's written in the moonlight
And painted on the stars
We can't change ours

Don't give up on us, baby
We're still worth one more try
I know we put our last one by
Just for a rainy evening
When maybe stars are few
Don't give up on us,
I knowWe can still come through

Nice song, nice lyrics. The title is "Don't Give Up on Us" which is sung by David Soul. =)

She's asleep now. After listening to my story on the functions on the left and right brain. Haha. So i guess it's time for me to sleep now. Sorry for the long post!